we're having a BABY!!!

ahhh!!! still can’t believe it! we are SO THANKFUL. i’ve been getting a ton of questions so figured it would be easier to just post the answers all in one place!

when did you find out?

on january 22nd! at 3w1d. it’s nuts, it’s a crazy story. something only God could’ve written. i’ll have to share it in a separate post soon, it’s long!

how did you find out?

i had been tracking my cycles with Ava and ovulation strips — we weren’t technically “trying” yet because I was still meeting with my fertility specialist, trying to find answers for our 5 losses (at this point, they didn’t have answers and didn’t think I’d be able to conceive a viable baby without the help of fertility drugs). so i was just tracking to practice and because I’m just a curious person by nature lol. because of that, I knew I ovulated late that month and quite honestly, I’m not really sure how i even got pregnant because i’m 99% sure we didn’t have sex during the right time haha! the 2 days before I tested though, I was practically falling asleep at the dinner table — like, laying my arm across the table and had my head down, eyes closed. I was just so tired and that definitely made me suspicious. I tested in the afternoon and got the FAINTEST line known to mankind. seriously — I don’t think anyone else could’ve seen it haha! just meeee (since I’ve taken so many dang tests — I’m a bit of a pee-on-a-stick addict lol). I immediately called my fertility doc and they had me come in for bloodwork the next morning.. it came back GREAT (for the first time ever) and that gave us our first shred of hope. they immediately put me on baby aspirin and progesterone suppositories as a precaution and then we continued to do bloodwork over the next 1.5 weeks and each time, it just kept rising. during that time, we had so many people literally praying for us daily, praying that God would breathe life into this baby. it was truly amazing.

when are you due?

october 6th! My original due date was september 30th, based on my last cycle, but because I just happened to know exactly when I ovulated and I knew it was a week late, they adjusted the due date. And the baby has measured on that due date every time so I know that was the right call! even though I’d love to be a week father along right now haha.

do you know the sex yet?

not yet! we are actually finding out THIS WEEK. eeeek!

are you going to share if it’s a boy or girl?

yes! not sure when yet but we will def share! i would never be able to keep that to myself and not accidentally slip lol

do you have names?

we have a girl name! no clue on a boy name — like ZERO. we have a possible middle name but seriously, we never agree on boy names haha. silas was a miracle ;) and, sorry in advance, we only share the name after baby is here!

how do you feel?

excited, elated, still in shock. but so so so thankful. kinda want to pinch myself. I honestly wasn’t sure we would ever be here again so I’m just really damn grateful.

have you had any symptoms?

mostly fatigue! the fatigue always hits me hard. it’s not as bad as I remember it with the other 2, but I most def take a nap every single day when the kids nap haha! and I’ve actually been more tired the last week than i was early on! I definitely haven’t been as active on social media the last six or seven weeks, I suck at texting back or responding to DMs and even getting out of my pjs some days. I’m just so dang tired all the time haha. I have super sore boobs. bloating. the usual. I also get pretty lucky in the morning sickness department during pregnancy... had mild nausea and food aversions with Silas for 5-7 weeks. was nauseous with Verity for literally 6 days and that was it. and this one was similar — about 1.5 weeks or so and then it faded. never threw up with any of them! I’ll randomly get a wave of nausea if I haven’t eaten yet or something like that, but honestly, I’m so thankful and blessed that that part is easy for me. I also had pretty major mood swings with my other 2, esp in the first trimester. I’ve felt MUCH more stable and even-keeled this time around, which is HUGE.

what are you looking forward to?

finding out if it’s a boy or girl! second trimester! decorating the room! giving birth! meeting this baby! I just wanna see who they are😍

what do you miss?

ahhh. margaritas. super hot baths. being able to work out!! they found a small SCH (subchorionic hemorrhage) during one of my ultrasounds and while I haven’t had ANY bleeding and they’re “not worried at all”, they put me on full pelvic rest as a precaution — so no sex, no lifting, no exercise, nothing, until it’s healed. it’s honestly been hard, exercising is my sanity. BUT if it means a healthy babe, then I’ll do WHATEVER it takes. hoping it’s healed on my next ultrasound and I'm released back to normal life!

how do your kids feel?

sissy doesn’t really know what’s going on since she’s so young haha but silas is PUMPED. which is actually so fun for US since the last time I was pregnant, he was so little and didn’t understand. it’s sooo fun to have a kiddo that truly KNOWS what’s happening. he talks about the “baby in mommy’s tummy” all the time, pretends like he’s holding a baby and rocking it, etc. I think they’ll both do great. and I can’t wait until the baby starts kicking and they can feel it! that’s just gonna be the BEST.

are you craving anything?

oh man, I never really really craved anything crazy with the other 2 (I think just sweeter things with sis??) and this one is the same. nothing crazy. and nothing even super specific! my only problem is that when i see something, like an ad or a video recipe or something, I need to have it RIGHT NOW. like, 5 min ago right now. and I can’t stop thinking about it until I eat it haha. most of our dinners lately have been completely determined by what FB videos I saw that day😂

were you scared to announce early?

this is a tough one. and I feel like it’s based completely on personal preference. with my first two, I announced around six weeks each time but after having the five miscarriages, I was definitely a little leery about announcing before we made sure things were going well. I def wasn’t going to announce before I went to a doctor! we had considered waiting until 12 or 14 weeks but honestly, there’s just really no safe zone with pregnancy. the chances might go down at 12 weeks, but I have multiple friends who lost babies after that, so I truly don’t feel like we’re ever really guaranteed that nothing bad can happen — and to be honest, after losing that many pregnancies, I feel like you go one of two ways: you either don’t announce for months and months and keep it to yourself because it is so painful or, like me, because you’ve experienced loss, you want to celebrate life for as long as you have it. I realized that keeping this pregnancy to myself and then, heaven forbid, losing it, wouldn’t hurt any less than if I HAD announced. and having a support system in place is truly what got me through those 5 losses and the darkness that followed. we’ve had multiple rounds of bloodwork and 4 ultrasounds so far and everything is looking great, thank GOD! we’re taking it a day at a time and have a lot of peace but it’s scary as hell. still is. this pregnancy after loss is SO different than my other experiences. sometimes I miss being naive and “innocent”. but anyways, all that said... we chose to make it public earlier than the “norm” simply because we are so grateful for this gift and we want to celebrate this baby for as long as they’re with us! and hopefully that’s 80+ years❤️

alrighty, y’all. that’s it! let me know if you have any other questions and I'll try to answer them on IG stories! so grateful for your support, encouragement and excitement with and for us — truly grateful for YOU!!

xoxo